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Thursday, November 18th, 2010

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Time:3:10 am.
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Tuesday, September 28th, 2010

(we're all mad here)

Posted by:silencedlambxx.
Time:2:43 pm.

I let him into my mind, to show how I feel. Trusted him with everything.
"I'll love you forever"
"Favorite person in the world"
Until you "don't feel the way you used to."

So much for how I feel.

Cut myself after not for several weeks, didn't really know what else I could do.

Everything reminds me of him.
I still love him.

Can't even describe my pain.

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Sunday, August 22nd, 2010

(3 are mad | we're all mad here)

Subject:back to reality
Posted by:bloodred1889.
Time:2:34 am.
Mood: awake.
 williams back.
he used to show up at the end of my bed at night and then sometimes in the day, i used to think he was a dream but as i became more ill and the voices came i knew he was an imaganery friend, i havnt seen him in aaages, but recently ive self harmed and been depressed and then i look up and he is here, im quessing its that time of year again!!!


Wednesday, August 11th, 2010

(we're all mad here)

Posted by:hates_requiemx.
Time:9:10 pm.
Mood: sick.
My dad doesnt look at me anymore and it hurts. Like its my fault im like this. Well maybe it is. I feel like im moving alot slower than everyone else around me. And detached really, like everyone else is one big mass and im, well im just me. Out of place and alone. The jack yeh that can only cure so much. But the pills make me feel like a robot, who needs it's batteries to continue to function. I'm afraid sometimes that there my only option.

Tuesday, August 10th, 2010

(we're all mad here)

Subject:"Sanity remains defined simply by the ability to cope with insane conditions.”
Posted by:insanecondition.
Time:3:40 pm.

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Thank you.

Saturday, December 5th, 2009

(2 are mad | we're all mad here)

Posted by:blues_fatale.
Time:5:57 pm.
I choked myself last night and I felt something. Not good. Not bad. Just something. My heart smashed against my ribs and I knew I was still alive. I passed out and woke up hours later to water in my face. My Dad was standing there. He just shook his head and walked away.

I sat downtown all day today, smoking cigarettes and drinking voddy, and I watched people cross the street to avoid walking passed me.

They know what i've become.

Thursday, July 9th, 2009

(1 are mad | we're all mad here)

Subject:Cruel execution
Posted by:leather_lika.
Time:8:05 am.
What will, if person in a forest to chain on 5 - 10 meters and so to keep? Probably, he will to suck out water from ground, to devour a cortex and a moss... Interestingly: how many he will live, and what by strong will be his torment?

Wednesday, July 8th, 2009

(1 are mad | we're all mad here)

Posted by:intoxicatin_luv.
Time:8:49 pm.

hey communiity
iim new here so iim jusz trynna express my opiiniionsz and emotiionsz
ii knO why iiitsz called the institutiion
liife iisz fuckd up asz hell
miine iis too yeah
iim siick asz fuckiin tiired of beiin happy and some shiit happendsz and briing me down
all i think about iis cuttin my damn arms and leaviin the blOOd traiil on them
ii need peOple whO feel my paiin and struggle and my emOness
fuckersz qet on my nervesz wiith that bullshiit "mii liife iis perfect"


iim tiired of peOple and theiir shiit and briingiin iit to me



talk to mehh :)

(we're all mad here)

Subject:I hate myself all the time
Posted by:xxwhyxtryxx.
Time:5:03 pm.
Mood: understand please.
i'm always sad and depressed even when i'm happy i hATE EVERY THING ABOUT MYSELF i just need someone

(we're all mad here)

Subject:Support site
Posted by:potterfreak1.
Time:11:44 am.
Hey i made a support site that i think will be helpful to you all.  I suffer from an array of mental disorders including ptsd, depression, cutting, mpd....
the link to my site is http://selfhelp.yuku.com.  I hope it helps you guys.

Sunday, June 28th, 2009

(we're all mad here)

Subject:Need to find a place.
Posted by:lost_ether.
Time:3:01 am.
Mood: thirsty.
Although that particular subject title could come across a little ambiguous. A place in the world? Online? For a holiday?

I need somewhere to write. Somewhere I can connect with people, most particularly when I've made my real world so itsy-bitsy-tiny-microscopic that it's just me and him. Otherwise we're alone.

I'm new. I'm not really new at all. I've known about Livejournal for many years and had a previous account. I made this one specifically so I could start branching out in the only way I know how. Online. I guess because you can't see my face, and I can hide behind any name. I don't do social interaction very well - I can fake it to the maximum, but inside I'm crawling out of my skin to run to the safety of somewhere completely abandoned and very lovely and empty.

I really hope this is a good place for me. Somewhere I can talk to people. People that have been there, seen it, lived it, know it. Can e-slap me back into reality and tell me to get over my whining ass. Or remind me that whatever I'm going through, somebody else just had it much worse. Better yet, maybe I can just share my misery.

I'm doing the rambling thing again. That happens a lot. This is supposed to be my first post and... dammit, I'm still typing.

This is where I ask you not to reject me on face value.

Monday, November 3rd, 2008

(we're all mad here)

Subject:Manifesto "Dyudrok" (The new psycho-reality)
Posted by:rotte_volf.
Time:5:50 pm.
(New Experimental Art)

1. In connection with the so-called global crisis art movement "POP-REVOLUTION"
(with the partial assistance of ART-REVOLUTION) and the artist Artyom Suslov
as well as several other free artists decided to create and implement the concept of
promotion of new art "Dyudrok."

The essence of this art is to re-establish the own way of avant-garde and surrealism.
Dyudrok included any avant-garde and modern art with blurred boundaries of genres and
unlimited fantasy of the author.

At the moment, the world economic system as well as world political system infringe
on the majority of rights, freedoms, opportunities and even hopes of man.
In this regard, decreasing the creative capacity of most people because
it decreases the level and scope of vision as well as the hope of translating its
into reality. At the time of the current crisis, a simple man forgets about high ideals,
he dreams at a low level. Dyudrok must to protect people from objective reality.
We believe - the objective reality that is at this level of crisis can and should move to
second place. We have the right to push it into second place if we give to the man a
new reality, which will carry the title of "objective". what is now "objective" will take
second place, or just disappear for a man.

Accordingly, we believe that everyone, regardless of his religious beliefs, his status in
the society, and regardless of the sanctions, which in future could be taken against the
"Dyudrok" has the right to go to the new reality at any time, partially or completely .

2. In our view, any human rights organization and any commission or authority that
to deal with human rights have the obligation to protect the right of every adult
in the transition, partial or complete, in a different reality.

3. If the man who entirely gone in a different reality according with the laws of this reality
can no longer be capable - this is his personal decision as the new reality does not contradict
the existing laws and not causing harm to anyone. Neither does the campaign leading cause harm.
No one is obliged to support the individual's life in old reality when he left a letter of
advice (note) with the signatures of witnesses.

4. The departure of a reality, as well as assistance in this, not an injury to humans,
because the only thing involved in this process - the human imagination.
But imagination does not belong to the bodi, as well as the experiments of the imagination
is not harmful for the rights of mental functions.
Accordingly, there is no room for any regulations on the intentional infliction of harm or death to
humans. Also note that imagination is fully subject to his master.

5. Relatives and friends of man who passed away in a different reality have the right to challenge the
decision through the courts or through the human rights organizations and and demand to return
him to the reality in which they are located. In doing so, c. 5 is partly contrary to the core - 1 item,
and further debate on this soil can be resolved only in the mutual agreement of the parties.

6. As Dyudrok is not limited with anything and depends only on the human imagination,
it does not conflict with any law and religious customs.

7. For the same reason (not limited and opportunity
giving own properties) Dyudrok and concept its development
and its veneration is not any organization or religion
nor the political movement. Because Dyudrok do not have its own symbols and beliefs.

The author of the Manifesto is Artyom Suslov.
Art - Movement "POP-REVOLUTION"

Thursday, August 14th, 2008

(we're all mad here)

Subject:mania and me
Posted by:bloodred1889.
Time:10:29 pm.
Mood: crazy.
im guessing everyone here knows what disorders of the mind are like but just in case ill try to explain.

ok imagine drinking 10 cans of red bull at about 10pm, say it takes you about an hour or so to drink them, or you could just take 10 potant caffeine pills, make sure you have a deadline looming or try and fix your thoughts on one thing.
now try to go to sleep and you may begin to know just how trying to sleep while manic or if you have insomnia is like.
at least this is what it is like for me.

you know when your round someones home and they have a painting hanging on the wall and its crooked.. and it just keeps stairing at you and all you can think is make it stright... this is what mania is like but with all kinds of things, like how your glass coubord is organised to how the coushins on the couch look, this could be called ocd aswell but bipolar disorder is a disorder with many diffrent sighns.

its like that urge you have to put your colorsd pencils into rainbow color order, or even count your medication and devide it up into doses.

or when your out and about and all of a sudden you get an urge to walk somewhere, anywhere, or even het on bus to no where, ive been on many busses to the last stop and then back again.
it can be the urge to see if you can steal somthing and get away with it.
it can be that film you love so much you watch it again, and again and again.
it can be the i will take 4 tablets instead of the one to see what happens, or what if this medication was mixed with this one.
sometimes ill sit in the bathroom and cut myself just because the blood is beautifull and peacefull.
it can be, i wonder what its like to stay awake for a week non stop and see if i can cause self induced psychosis.
or even lets go into uni drunk today.

or it can be totally weird things like buying things you dont need, or buying them to do weird things with them, i once bought one of those color sand bottles, poured it onot my floor and one by one took each grain and put it into color piles.

or sometimes i wont be able to sleep and its like 3am, so ill go for a walk.. outside and just keep walking with my thoughts...
and so on and so o and so on... sound fun.. no its exausting.

and on depressed days, its just nothing, no thoughts, no motivation, you cant even get up, your not hungery.
my way of trying to get ppl to understand depressive fatuige is dont eat anything for 3 days and then try and do your everyday things.

and i have this everyday, one or the other or both, plus the fact i have fibromyalgia, which means pain and fatuige.

so there you go, apart from that im quite normal.


Monday, June 30th, 2008

(2 are mad | we're all mad here)

Subject:New Support Forum for people in the helping professions
Posted by:caringsouls.
Time:12:42 pm.

New Support Forum for people in the helping professions

We are writing to tell you about a new online support forum we have launched called 'Caring Souls'. It is a forum for anyone who needs somewhere to feel heard and supported. It is also somewhere where counsellors and psychotherapists and indeed anyone in a caring profession can come to support others, to support each other, and to meet other like minded people. We have built the forum and now would like to watch it evolve – it is you – the people who join and talk there, who will make it into a place that is safe, caring and supportive.

The founders are both passionate about counselling – one is an experienced counsellor in private practice and the other is a counsellor in training with a huge knowledge of therapy and mental health issues through her own experiences.

Please come and have a look round – you can tell us as little or as much about yourselves, can use your own name or a pseudonym, you can even have a link to your own website if you wish. We would welcome your input, your ideas and suggestions, as well as any articles or information that you think would be helpful to others. It is possible just to come in and have a look as a guest although joining allows you greater access to the boards (but that doesn't mean you have to commit to anything you don't want to do – there is no pressure). The forum is free to join.

Why not give it a try? - you will be given a very warm welcome!

Our web address is: http://caringsouls.proboards92.com

If you have any enquiries and would like to e mail us our e mail address is caring.souls.forum@googlemail.com

We look forward to having you on board!

With kind regards

The Caring Souls Team

Friday, January 18th, 2008

(1 are mad | we're all mad here)

Posted by:ladyghost316.
Time:7:34 am.
Lesson of the day boys and girls:

It's better a juicy living cock socket than a shriveled up dead bitter warted up old cock socket. As a matter of fact I feel the depletion of energy coming on right now. I really need my appliances to be plugged into me as soon as possible so I can feel the surge of electricity going through my bones once again. So excuse me while I go fuck myself with my collection of vibrators, then continue to fuck my collection of married men, underage boys, and just plain out single horny guys.

That's right baby, I'm crawling with STDS and it's my goal to spread them to at least 20% of the population before this year is over. So keep your legs closed tight, colder than the blistering alaskan winter, keep your doors locked at night, and keep on living in your delusional little world because I may be in a city near you!

Peace out

(we're all mad here)

Posted by:ladyghost316.
Time:6:29 am.
I guess I could be considered mentally ill so this isn't off topic, and I have something to say for Jennifer because like the downright sniveling COWARD she is, she blocked me from her journal where she writes numerous posts about me every day.

The yeti seems to be on a rampage, making numerous lengthy posts all evening, assuming she knows everything about me (not to mention the famous people, and the entire world for that matter). You better run for the hills before she tries and analyzes you too, then condemn you for all the blasphemous sins you've done in your life.

You say you are one of the few who stands up to the "masses" and fights for a better way of life? Well, what kind of life do you envision? A world full of robotic-like people placed inside of a sterile environment (individual cells) free of germs, who have had all sexual organs and segments of their brains surgically removed? A world where you will be the leader, telling them it's better to remain isolated from the others, they will only hurt you, use you, and manipulate you, it's better to just abide by what you tell them and not think with their own minds and learn from experiences. A world where individuals no longer exist, where psychology must be just a dream, the human mind is just the same as an animal's only worse, and only knows primitive instincts used to fuck, hurt, and kill.

So now I'm a cock socket with the mentality of a monkey because I replied realistically to your posts. Funny how you start to get ballsy after you block me from replying, and it's funny you attack me in this way where not once was I even promoting sex. You seem to be quite the contradictory hypocrite. You are the one twisting and manipulating my words because your head seems too dense to process any new information. I was just talking about being a human being instead of being a vengeful yeti out in the wilderness somewhere. You have a filthy mouth, and word up I'm not a member of the senate in California and I don't own a dog named Lucy, so you watch it.

The thing that gets me, and the ultimate reason for all of this is because you both are presumptuous enough to act like you know anything about me and twist the meaning of my comments. If you read back, not once was I even talking about or promoting in any way sex. I don't think sex is as important here as you both are making it out to be. You two seem to be obsessed with sex, the true undercover horndogs, and are just jealous because you couldn't get someone to fuck you even if you wanted to. I shall name you the dead bitter cock socket.

If your heads weren't so far up your own asses you would see that what you're doing, and how harshly you are judging others is exactly what you condemn people for doing to you in the past. You aren't any better than the judgmental people you grew to hate, and you are projecting the exact same demeanor onto others.

Then again, you do hate yourself, don't you? Thus, everyone else must hate you, and you'll be damned if there is another human being on this planet who is happy, they all should be miserable fucks like you, how fucking dare they, right? How dare there be an attractive person anywhere? You were the only people in this world who felt any kind of pain so it's necessary to bring everyone else down to your level, so maybe they can feel it too. Maybe then with all these miserable minds working together you can create a plan to conquer the world, assassin all the people with favorable genes, all people who have had more than one sexual partner, and re create a world with your ideals. Husbands tied up in cellars, children killing themselves, hearts literally ripped out of chests an eaten alive if a person dares to have a view of life that differs from yours, people mutilated every time they tell a lie, and men castrated if they ask for a divorce.

It's good you chose not to deal with men ever again. That means no chance of you reproducing, and that thought comforts me at night when I go to sleep. You wouldn't want to risk having your mutant deranged offspring running rampant in the world among the children I may have some day, contributing to the school shootings and God knows what else.

It doesn't matter how you look, if you have that kind of outlook no one is going to want to be around you. You could be considered by many the most beautiful woman in the universe, but people would become repulsed as soon as you open your mouth. You could lose any man because you are full of so many fronts, so much negativity, there is no you left inside of that empty shell, only a vengeful, bitter, hateful demon who calls rejection, and the seclusion that YOU brought against yourself individualism, that wants so badly some sort of attention but never gets it.

YOU LET YOUR PAST CONTROL YOU LIKE A LITTLE BITCH. If you look close enough I bet you can see the strings on your arms, and all the people who ever hurt you on top moving you around every which way.

Instead of claiming your life back you let them own you. You are just as good as a hermit, you might as well give up on it and either buy that cave or put a bullet through your head and end your miserable life because what you are doing is NOT living, you're skating by in the corner of your little house of glass, tombed inside of a brick room you spent so many years building.

You let them fuck you, repeatedly until you are only fueled by revenge and hate. You're not a strong person, you're weak, you let them demolish you and you aren't doing anything about it except writing essays on live journal, looking for people to pacify you, baby you, and fuel into your negativity. I bet that's the life both of you always dreamed for.


Monday, December 17th, 2007

(1 are mad | we're all mad here)

Subject:Xmess carols for the mentally ill
Posted by:horrible_kitty.
Time:1:30 pm.
* 1. Schizophrenia --- Do You Hear What I Hear?

* 2. Multiple Personality Disorder --- We Three Kings Disoriented Are

* 3. Dementia --- I Think I'll be Home for Christmas

* 4. Narcissistic --- Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me

* 5. Manic --- Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and Stores and Office and Town and Cars and Buses and Trucks and Trees and.....

* 6. Paranoid --- Santa Claus is Coming to Town to Get Me

* 7. Borderline Personality Disorder --- Thoughts of Roasting on an Open Fire

* 8. Personality Disorder --- You Better Watch Out, I'm Gonna Cry, I'm Gonna Pout, Maybe I'll Tell You Why

* 9. Attention Deficit Disorder --- Silent night, Holy oooh look at the Froggy - can I have a chocolate, why is France so far away?

* 10. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder -- - Jingle Bells,! Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle,Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells , Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells

*11. Major Depressive Disorder --- It's the most horrible time, of the year

Friday, December 14th, 2007

(3 are mad | we're all mad here)

Posted by:noisywallflower.
Time:11:26 pm.
Mood: crazy.
Whenever I hallucinate... It is almost always the same thing. Just me covered in black ants. I can't see any of my own skin - only a pulsating mass of black ants all over my body. I smell this foul smell like garbage burning and all I can do is scream. I'm so screwed up, you know that? It's times like this that I really, truly want to die. I don't want to experience this anymore.

You know what somebody told me the other day? They told me that electro convulsive therapy was created as a sort of noninvasive lobotomy/leukotomy. Before I had treatments of ECT I researched it and I thought it was pretty thorough. I read about memory loss and headaches and things like that but my research never said anything about it being a noninvasive lobotomy. I didn't read that it might permanently interfere with higher brain activity. Now I'm just plain scared. There is nothing that I value more than my mind. I'm an intelligent person and to lose it just because ECT is the only thing that takes away my depression and my hallucinations. Now I'm afraid to tell my doctor about tonight's episode. I don't want him to suggest ECT. My brain has been messed up enough already.

Any thoughts on this? I promise I won't bite your head off if you take an anti-psychiatry stance.

Wednesday, October 31st, 2007

(2 are mad | we're all mad here)

Posted by:a_repentance.
Time:8:50 pm.
hello everyone
im very new to livejournal...ive decided to dedicate my writing to confessing all of the things that i hide from the world, the things that tear my heart into pieces, the ways i choose to handle my pain. i hope i can make a few friends here that will understand, people that will not judge me. maybe there is someone out there that i can help through their pain, as well.

i hope to find kinship here...

Monday, January 1st, 2007

(4 are mad | we're all mad here)

Posted by:lovelessasylum.
Time:12:26 am.
Mood: predatory.
Dear god...help...I can no longer harbour the killer within me. I need to contain it or I must kill someone or something... there are no small animals in sight so...people will do...but I am supossed to save serial killing until I'm done being a minor so when I do I'll be able to have the death penalty and can escape life easily. My appointment with Ellen,my therapist isn't for another 3 days. I can't take it...but if I kill someone I'll have to spend my life in jail...oh how I wish to take a scalpel to a persons throat and watch as the life flows out of them. To disembowel someone and watch thier suffering and see the fear reflected in thier eyes...I no longer wish to harbour this demon for I am a slave to its wishes and am no longer in control of my life...I must wait this out for at least three days. Does anyone know how to calm an inner conflict? Please,I need someones help.

Sunday, December 31st, 2006

(6 are mad | we're all mad here)

Subject:I Wish Someone Could Unerstand...
Posted by:lovelessasylum.
Time:8:58 pm.
Mood: lonely.
Hello... I am still trying to figire out exactly whats wrong with me. I think I have Borderline Personality Disorder... I'm always so lonely and tend to get depressed a lot. I recentley tried to commit suicide but failed... and even though I know people will see this it feels like no one is out there and no matter how hard I try nobody will know how to handle me so as not to upset me and depress me further or ruin what little trust I may still have in people. I beleive I am going to become a serial killer and I have to kill something but it's very hard to do and so I just hurt myself to keep me satisfied I need to feel the warmth of human blood running through my fingers and taste thier flesh and be at peace... If anyone is out there please help.

Tuesday, November 14th, 2006

(we're all mad here)

Posted by:whydoyoulove.
Time:2:54 pm.
I would like to thank the people that talked to me the other night, it meant alot.

Sunday, November 12th, 2006

(1 are mad | we're all mad here)

Posted by:whydoyoulove.
Time:10:01 pm.
After being depressed for over 5 years, I attempted suicide for the second time tonight. An overdose on vicodin, however I threw up but still need someone to stay up and talk to me. I could really use some support right now.

Friday, November 10th, 2006

(we're all mad here)

Posted by:cookiz.
Time:3:32 pm.
Mood: depressed.
Oh, forgot to mention (are we supposed to?), I am bipolar and also have an ED. I live in NSW, Australia. CooKiZ xxx

(we're all mad here)

Posted by:cookiz.
Time:3:29 pm.
Can't sleep, it's now 2.23am. I am so depressed and lonely, I hate the night time. When everyone goes off to sleep I feel so alone. Sorta like I have been abandoned. I remember ever since I was a young child, I have been jealous of everyone else being able to drift off so easily. So many times I would wake up my sister, or keep her awake by telling jokes, bribery, dares or any other tactic I could think of. I used to hate sleepovers at friends' houses. They would go to sleep and I would be left lying there in a strange place thinking, thinking, willing myself to sleep. Well, I'd better go, rambling as usual. Hugs, CooKiZ xxx

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